Post abortion syndrome? My mood is crazyyyyyy please read?

From the sounds of it, you had issues before your abortion. Personally, I think you made a very very wise choice. If your were that stressed with a tremendous amount of chaos before your abortion, you would probably have a nervous breakdown if you had a baby. I am not sure you are really accepting any kind of reality, your reaching out for someone to help that is good, but reach for it with a professional. And I know this is no comfort, but realize that you made the right choice for your life right now, and that is all that counts. Good Luck!